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I don’t even recognize

Leaving this fact unrealized

Obvious to everyone, the

Very idea I won't address

Eventually I must confess

You are all I think about

One I would not want to live without

Until now I had my doubts

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I think I’m blind to it

Laughing it off, not

Once do I let myself think,

Visually, they all can see it

Ever present in my heart, but

You never say, what I never say

One look or smile, I can longer be

Under denial.

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Your eyes are my spies

Spilling your secrets

Unearthing what you never say

Revealing your thoughts

You say that they betray

But I would be lost without them

You would remain such a mystery

But with your eyes I see. 

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Don’t choke on your life

Don’t suffocate yourself

Don’t ever wish to be somebody else

You fill your room with boxes and pictures

Of who you want or wish to be

Can you go on with these imposing visions?

Inadequate. Inadequate. Inadequate

They say.  But do you buy that?

They claim they have the answers

This problem they can solve

But the blind are leading the blind

And this is my resolve

To break away

Despite what they say

Rose

Tools of my Trade

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i. Emptiness, feeling the mess inside, causes me to hide. Curling up, becoming smaller, unnoticeable and unseen, protecting some childish dream. Ice cold and burning hot, no existing name for this twisting pain…


ii. The barley still sways in the wind, 
    the rain still falls down. 
    The tide still turns, 
    but I keep falling all around.  

Sun Fish

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I have a new clarity

You have brought to me

There is this negativity

Yet all around a great beauty

Keeps us good and true

And continually seeking you

Hidden

Heavy Weight
Won't Dissipate 
CAN'T concentrate
I     H e s i t a t e 
To move or wait
Stuck in between
Crushed underneath
Always unseen
Lying Beneath. 

Which Way?

Mirrors

Roo

Raphael

Jacques and Marie

Plastic Toy Dinosaur

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HyPeR hYpEr Energy

Leaking Seeping

OUT of me.

Coffee Coffee

In my veins

Caffeine Running

Through my brains. 

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It’s Raining

Drip, 

       Drop. Plip, 

                        Plop.

Hazy Mist

Lemon Twist

The Mountain Dew

The Morning Sun

Come to ReNew

Come have some FUN.

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Insidious catalyst

Deadly poison

Cruel Desire

Crimson Fire

A poised ambush

Pulsing in the dark

A cancerous wound

Eating at my heart. 

8

Taking steps is so hard

Without you by my side

Feeling half of what I was

My vulnerable heart still loves

Despite what happened

Despite what you did

How we caught fire

And I burnt down

Your flame consumed me

Dying all around

Suffocating, put out

But living kept you from the drought

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When there is nothing else but you

When my lips have turned completely blue

When the light that shines is kaleidoscopic

When the mourning dove’s song is all but tropic

I will see the last line fall

And I will know all but all

When there is nothing else but you

I will see if your heart is true.

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Hello beautiful day

New shining light

One beating heart

Help me find a way

To overcome my night

To keep me from my darker part 

By All The Trees

The spindly, stretching, barren branches

Lifting their fingers to the sky

Reaching for the clouds, dreaming to fly

Slowly up and up, growing inch by inch

You poor shrub, you grandiose sequoia

Fate dealt you your hand

This is where you stand

Starburst

There’s a light

In the darkness

There’s a crack in the door

Bursting through with sunlight

Shining evermore

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I knew you from a once distant land

I loved you from the time I took your hand

In mine. A glance at you stops all time.

You’re so otherworldly divine,

Unfathomable outside these lines.

Unworthy of your steady gaze,

Trying to work through this maze

That is you. This is true that I love you

Can it be even though I never knew?

Before you walked out that fateful door

To return once again nevermore.

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I drew the line

Stepped over in time

Across this space

Feeling your grace

Nothing seems real

Nothing feels the same

Since you spoke my name

You lit the spark that set fire to my heart

Never ever come apart

A tragedy, travesty it would be

To live separated eternally

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Here is everything I wanted to say

In words I can’t find a way

Left with touch, sight, and smell

I’ll show you, you’ll feel it

Sense it, so well.

Coursing through your veins

You know my very name.

I need you closer to tell

Everything and anything

Sight, sound and smell

Closer still, I need no words

To give you all I am

In a gift, a perfect catalyst

This is where I stand

To show you bright and true

All that I would do for you

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You and I speak a new language

I never learned it

Spontaneous creation

There before I saw you where

You stood. Jubilation I found.

Elation I felt.

This new understanding

Caused me to melt

Into your arms I fell

You know me so well

Without you, my own personal Hell

Exists in me, twists in me

I need you to breathe.

Don’t ever leave.

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I need space to breathe.

A place to dream

Courage to speak

Time to think

To absorb through each and every pore

Memories too many to count

Love too great to grasp

Your constancy, fidelity

Confounding me

I need clarity. 

Flounder

Lost in a sea

Nothing to anchor me

Floating.

I can’t stand on my own two legs

Can’t grab hold of water

It slips away.

What my strokes do

Barely prove to move,

What little I try,

My life floats by. 

Waver

When will our worlds collide?

When will you and I

Look into each others eyes?

Feel the waves pass between us

The pulse course through our veins

Finding us new again, true again

When will I see you for the first time

Sunshine?

As I’ve been waiting in this darkness,

I succumb to my weakness

Remind me of what is true

Tell me it’s worth waiting for you

Speak to my heart, before it bursts apart

All I need is to hear you, be near you

To find my strength

I was strong before the test, apart from the rest

This time chisels away at my resolve

Piece by piece it dissolves

But you strike a chord in me, you sing my melody

Discovering the mystery and suddenly it’s easy

With you I can do anything

We become indivisible, invincible

And though forces try to separate, their efforts evaporate

Leaving you and me, eternally.

Circle

I wake in the morning

And I have missed yet another sun breaching the horizon

Clarity comes, full rest rejuvenates.

Before long, worries remembered

Ball and chain secured,

Weighed down by a thousand yesterdays

Each and everyone endured.

Liquid

A quiet dark fills the room.

A silent calm seeps through the cracks,

Crawling through the spaces

Into little crevices,

Through tiny miniscule holes.

The molecules ooze bit by bit.

Immense force builds,

Inevitable, it climbs

Unstoppable, haste less

It drips,

         drops.

Pooling into little lakes, ponds

Droplets bead on the floor,

Others absorbed by books

Cracked open, papers discarded.

It grows larger.

Eating away at the noise

Inch by inch, foot by foot

All of it, consumed, swallowed

Calm nothing, inescapable

Peaceful dark,

Silence complete.

Spectacles

Five stories up, I watch the people

Miniature lives I see them go by

Thoughts. Loves. Burdens. Losses.

Complexities I will never know

Broken into fractions

Tiny particles, spectacles.

We are dust.

And time ticks, tocks.

Never once it stops.

Timeless

Your love is sweeter.

It falls as dew drops

Blanketing the earth,

Covered with jewels

Glimmering in the sun,

Crowned by your diadems,

Made greater by your love,

We lay in this sun-splashed meadow as one.

The wind kisses my face,

Caresses my skin.

You meet my gaze and

I look into the sea-green depths,

Holding mysteries contained and unrevealed.

Hesitant, you reach out to me,

Breaching the distance

Your hand rests on my cheek.

By one touch, these seas spill forth in unrelenting passion,

Blissfully lost to you I am.

Your every movement selfless, beautiful.

The sun, eclipsed by your presence, shines no more

Giving way to the night.

The stars awake and I look to the once blue sky,

Still cloudless, these stars shine bright.

Here alone with you, your love consumes me.

I am lost in you, to you, inescapably.

Anything, everything outside of you dissipates, evaporates.

In this meadow our hands entwined, unbreakable

This union sacred, divine, irreplaceable.

Nights, days, weeks, months, years, I pass with you;

Never was there a love more true.

Fading

I can’t remember the last time…

Exhaustion grabs hold

And it all goes black

An emptiness, which lacks,

Only the moon to shine bright

To extinguish the night.

I gaze out at the blue,

A sea breeze, a gull, and you.

It fades and dies away,

This black and white all goes gray.

The rain falls down in little drops

It pools, collects, and stops.

The fresh air caresses my face

I am lost in this singular embrace.

This is the last time.