17

Dappled sunlight filters in

Late afternoon meanders by

As my thoughts sink in, 

I'm dozing, warm and cozy

In my bed of grass

And time just passes,

Never rushing once to fly.

Host

I am the host of your viral nature

Infected and subjugated

You have climbed inside of me

Completely unabated

Left to run your course

What else can I do?

I am so powerless against you

16-3

I’ve always felt this way

Living near you everyday

Once I saw you my fate was sealed

Visions of you were so surreal

Each barrier you broke through, but

You never noticed me

Out in the rain, this

Umbrella was for you.

16-2

I don’t even recognize

Leaving this fact unrealized

Obvious to everyone, the

Very idea I won't address

Eventually I must confess

You are all I think about

One I would not want to live without

Until now I had my doubts

16-1

I think I’m blind to it

Laughing it off, not

Once do I let myself think,

Visually, they all can see it

Ever present in my heart, but

You never say, what I never say

One look or smile, I can longer be

Under denial.

15

Your eyes are my spies

Spilling your secrets

Unearthing what you never say

Revealing your thoughts

You say that they betray

But I would be lost without them

You would remain such a mystery

But with your eyes I see. 

14

Don’t choke on your life

Don’t suffocate yourself

Don’t ever wish to be somebody else

You fill your room with boxes and pictures

Of who you want or wish to be

Can you go on with these imposing visions?

Inadequate. Inadequate. Inadequate

They say.  But do you buy that?

They claim they have the answers

This problem they can solve

But the blind are leading the blind

And this is my resolve

To break away

Despite what they say

Rose

Tools of my Trade

13

i. Emptiness, feeling the mess inside, causes me to hide. Curling up, becoming smaller, unnoticeable and unseen, protecting some childish dream. Ice cold and burning hot, no existing name for this twisting pain…


ii. The barley still sways in the wind, 
    the rain still falls down. 
    The tide still turns, 
    but I keep falling all around.